Gold Medal

This quote makes me laugh, because it is 100% me right now.  I know working out is necessary if I really want to lose weight and get into shape, but I can honestly think of nothing--and I mean NOTHING--that I want to do less than exercise!  

Working out when you are significantly overweight and astonishingly out of shape is pretty much just torture.  Just wrestling into a sports bra and spandex pants wears me out.  I feel like Jabba the Hut in a ponytail, and now I have to go sweat, contort myself, exert energy I don't have, and force myself to not quit the whole mess and go get a snack.

But so far, I am staying committed to my goal of working out every day in June.  Even when I stayed home sick earlier this week and could barely breathe or hold myself upright, I walked around a little bit in the backyard to get some fresh air, get some steps, and put my sticker on the calendar for working out that day.

I'm still not feeling 100% better, and I am still sniffling and popping decongestants, but I figured even sick old out-of-shape me could sit on a stationary bike and pedal for a bit.  I canceled my Peloton subscription because the instructors just got too annoying, begging for attention instead of just entertaining me through a bike ride, so I found a 30-minute workout on Youtube and got to it.  I just finished it, so of course I'm waiting for that gold medal for athleticism, ha ha.

I know it will change.  I know I need to stick to it, don't give up on myself, and keep showing up for myself each day.  One day at a time of struggling into the sports bra.  One day at a time of hating how I look in workout clothes.  One day at a time of not wanting to do it, but doing it anyway, because I value my health and want to make myself proud.  And one day, believe it or not, I will be stunned to realize I am looking forward to my workout!

Okay, that day is not today, though.  It won't be tomorrow, either.  But it's coming.  I know it. And I will keep working toward it.